Tuesday, November 4, 2008
I feel awesome about myself today for the first time in a long time. I've been listening to my body about food, eating what I want and stopping when I'm full. Looking for that feeling of "nothingness" that Marna talks about. I've also been sticking with my workout better, and starting to feel results!
I found this book at the library that really hit home for me called " The Show it Love Workout" by Kacy Duke. She is awesome. It is so strange that I came upon this book just after reading the book "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne which basically says that the laws of attraction in the universe are such that you attract what you want to you by your thoughts about them. I have been looking for a positive, motivating way to love myself and come into my true, thin body, and Kacy's book is definately it! It was such an exciting realization when I started to read it, thinking it would be like all the other diet/fitness books out there. But she really reaches inside to find the things that bother you and make you the way you are and then help you reach down and find the person within who has been hiding.
Kind of like "Thin Within You", by Marna Goldstein. I ran across her website a month or so ago, and it has really helped me in my quest. I believe the Secret is right, that we draw the things we focus on and think about, because just the fact of my finding the websites and books I have in the last month has proven that.
So I am no longer going to focus on the fat. It's gone. I am focusing on the thin me, locked inside, and letting her out. Focusing on letting her control my eating and thinking. And focusing on pictures, like the one above of Drew Barrymore, of thin people who are happy with themselves and in thier bodies, because that is what I intend to be. That is what I am!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
So the past couple of days have been a little off for me. Sunday I worked all day, which is pretty much the way it goes, so I dont' get anything else done, including any exercise. But I did pay for the exercise I did on Saturday! I'm still paying for it as a matter of fact! Not fun.
With fuel prices the way they've been lately, my husband and I invested in a wood/coal burning stove, and completely redid our heating system. We disconnected the oil furnace and oil based hot water heater, and replaced them with an electric hot water heater and the wood/coal burning stove. We have yet to buy the coal, but we have had wood stacked up beside our driveway for a couple of months now. Saturday we decided it was time to get it into the basement, since the weather is definately taking a turn for the COLD! So while my husband threw the wood into the basement through the little window (my idea, can you imagine lugging it all down there? Ugh!) I stacked it. I must admit this is something I'm quite good at, having been raised in a wood burning household and this was a yearly ritual with my parents and still is. Well stacking wood at 120lbs overweight is much different then doing it when you're a realitively fit teenager! My body is still recovering from that! When I swept and mopped the kitchen floor this morning I thought I was going to die!
So I guess that means I cant' skip my walk tonight, or tomorrow!! Luckily I found a buddy to walk with, so that ought to keep me honest! I'm very excited to start that particular ritual. It's always easier to stick to something when you know someone else is counting on you to be there for them too.
I've decided that my eating I need to watch calories more then anything else. So my caloric intake should be about 2000 calories to lose weight. I've found that to maintain my plumpish figure I'm consuming about 3100 calories per day. That's crazy! Once I start losing, I can decrease my caloric intake to about 1800 per day, but to do that now would put my body in starvation mode, which I don't want! Obviously I need to condition my body to expect less and use up the reserves on hand! I've taken to chewing gum when I'm bored so I won't eat. I think that probably saves about 500 calories a day if not more. So there's my tip for ya! If it works on the Biggest Loser, then it'll work for you too!
Shall we go for a walk today? Happy Losing!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
I am also upset that I had to miss my massage today. I had been looking forward to it all week as a reward for doing so well with my eating and exercising. I plan to reschedule it for next week, but it still doesn't change the fact that I won't be getting one today when I've been looking forward to it so much.